“You must step into the fire. Once you stand ablaze, Your mind will scatter to find a way out. There are no answers outside except in. The only answer? Sit and embrace.”
Prologue
A meaning is everything that we seek. A meaning in our life, in relationships, Careers etc. As logical creatures, we have to find a complete reasoning within to keep a continuation at some point. Let me give an example. A few years ago, I was once in a relationship that was pretty shaky on both parts. There was so many problems that perhaps only conflicted me. However, one of my major problems was to find a reason to stay. My sense of reasoning brought me to the safety and foundation of my child’s upbringing. Consciously, It made sense to follow with but unconsciously, I knew better and the mind does not like to be trifled with especially internalized conflict. I knew deep down that regardless of my situation that my child will be taken care of. I had a problem with being alone. Afraid of being lonely. This relationship was something that I had built and I didn’t want to see it crumble. But eventually, I broke it off. Funny how things work isn’t it?
The point of the text above is that we make our own reasons for everything. As a computer, our brains can make its own logic and reason of its own domain. It is it’s own operator and truthfully, It knows best for its beholder. Our consciousness does the decision making but it can be sidetracked quite easily when reality of other is a deciding factor and willpower is tested. Denying what is only extends the pain far greater than what is initially. To truly set things free, we must attend to what is hindering below the skin.
Where does this bring us?
Each time you’ve made a hard decision, How many times did you try to make the decision that was for everyone else’s benefit aside your own? Most can agree to try to make the best decision for the benefit of both others and ourselves but, even those decisions have its leaning factor. Our minds are as coins. One side shows what is in it for us and we take from there or the other, which shows the humility of nature and humanity as whole to give. In the moments we are making those precedent decision that dictate lives, people are either two of the told tales above. They either know their answer or are too afraid to express their truthful answer. We feel as though our expression of being is selfish and will be ridiculed for a real answer we have been conformed to representing. Some stick to the common “I don’t know”.
The funny part is we all know what we exactly want and don’t. We have the knowledge, the internal whistle, and the guider to tell us exactly where our expression belongs. Usually our environment is a great reason for that. But, Internally we all have our separation that showcase the uniqueness of a being. A fear of being experimental us is a death upon human nature and will be the ultimate depressant for what we call “Life”. Fear of self is the death of self.
Where do you go?
Lets take that coin analogy above to a new. Let’s say instead of it being a coin of two benefactors (heads and tails), we melt the coin. Now it is just simply a metal. Exactly what it was from the beginning however just with its meaning removed. It is exactly what it is all along. The same can be with the mind. We can make a good and a bad but truthfully, those rules only apply to us and us only. We can not expect people to abide by the same rules when we are born of difference! Instead Make the mind do its normality of good and bad, and create a conclusion that the mind wants to make. No perquisitions but allowing the mind to flow with its own.
Truthfully, There are no definite answers to living. The Self has no jurisdiction, no rules, no remorse, and no sense of punishment for expressing itself truly. It is only our conscious minds that know these things. The filter that takes or gives what it pleases by its user. To really understand how you function, you have to dig in places that fear you most. That boggle your head at night. That keeps you moving away from. Being a scientist and questioning the way of life in which you live will embrace something further than your moments mind could allow. The simplicity of it is Do what is attractive and keeps you whole. The depth of it is finding what your triggers mean, what keeps your soul in agony, and what is the life from within asking from you to express? What does the world ask of you that your body can’t help but feel and express?
Some things truly do not have final answers. To live is not to seek an end but to process. But it is your life to give toward. Make it meaningful to you. Remove the masks you have on yourself and then the world. Know that the work you do on yourself will benefit the world. It all works in the way you think it does, just not in the steps imaginable. These things and all of these things, take effort and consistency. A true blend of any form of “success”.
Light in the dark 