“Choose what you want to do with this life. If not, Someone will choose it for you. This is your key to a world never defined before.”
My backstory
As a kid, I’ve always had the rebellious attitude. I remember when I was just 8 when I first got into an argument about my homework. See I was always ready and ahead of myself in classes. I knew what’s worth my time and what I needed to put my time towards. I was always good at school though. Never a failing grade (Until Highschool began), I never had my own personal struggles but I had an opposition toward homework. You see, I never understood why working at home would ever do me any benefit when A. I know the work given isn’t as an impact grade as an exam or quiz and B. Work is meant to stay at work ( school at the time).
My teachers would sit furiously at me. My parents the same. They use to be so upset that I wasn’t applying all the energy I had into the work given to me. They knew I could solve it easily it was just a choice I decided to keep. One thing I did enjoy to put my hard earned extra time into though, was talking. Friendly banter or Outrageously roasting classmates in debate styled discussions. It was something to me that almost felt natural. Fast forward some time, I began to take some hardship and actual trouble into what it is that I enjoyed to do.
During high school, I was ridiculed for my communication. Perhaps too witty, too active, or too ill timed. It put a hold on me actually. With this was my first societal limitation put onto me that was a barrier to what I knew truthful to me and what was the most interconnection with my natural ability. Coming graduation, I had no clue onto what it was I was going to do with my existence. Nothing seemed fair to me or seemed interesting. People say that you shouldn’t trust your interest and work for a check but, that’s something we will get into later. To be such a young kid and everyone around him knew what they wanted except himself, was really a hard gut feeling that I would never amount to who I want to become.
To think about it, I had only one option that internally called to me and that was to be a therapist. A psychiatrist to be exact. It was something that seemed actually doable. At this time, I knew that whatever it was I got myself into, it was not going to change so I had to make a wise decision on what I want my life to amount to. Now that I think of it, my intuition was on a plane to understand I didn’t yet have the valuable trust in myself to know. So I did the only option I knew I could succeed at. I graduated High school, and went straight to a job.
Where the story leads
So coming into 2024, times have definitely changed since 2019. We’re under a constant pressure of “making it” beyond survival. We’re undergoing constant conflict of elsewhere planes of the world that do not coexist with our day to day life’s but have a mutual threat onto them. We’ve been through an outbreak that we haven’t seen in history be treated as. We’ve gone through emotional breakthroughs with civil rights, global economics, Political positions of power, and so on. We as people however have shown constantly that we don’t back down from a fight of any type. Which is an amazing courage to withhold for our next generations to come. So why is it that we the people are not following the passions we know we embody?
Now like I said in my backstory, I was born under my own rebellion. Continuing with that, That gift of mine turned against me when I didn’t have the secure trust to follow what my guiding star was leading me to. Perhaps this was your reason as well. We are all born uniquely. A way that hasn’t been defined before. But where the true challenge comes is when we chose to make that uniqueness our profession, vocation, or a way of living. We aren’t trained to be individualist of our own mind to build connecting bridges within each other but instead shown that we are all the same in every way, and we should be treated as such.
Me personally, that wasn’t a route I wanted to follow. I knew there were skills that I had to learn personally before I could choose a profession. I knew my profession couldn’t be done without the acknowledgement of how my mind, body, and soul interact with each other on different scenarios. How my emotions are triggered and how my mind works around problems. How my body feels and what exactly it feels and what it means. These type of things, believe it or not, are critical to your future.
The Solution
It’s almost been 5 years since my graduation. The difference between the being from then and now are clearly shown. I don’t regret the decision I made then. Instead of rushing through things, I’ve learned that the time between things of starting and finishing are the most important values of your longevity. For now, I want to become a neuro-psychiatrist. A position that takes great knowledge and value to learn. It isn’t a career choice that I want, But a way of living.
Through the gapped time of finding that, we should embrace the time that we have in between our decisions. Sometimes, things take a lot of time to develop. We are all based differently from birth. If you know what you want, Great. If not, even greater. Allow that time of uncertainty to swim through the countless pools of fields and information that intrigue you. You’re not meant to be here to know everything But, to experience what others do not see. What others have not walked. Your shoes are irreplaceable. There is nothing that can determine you are ready. NOTHING, except your own mind alignment. Ask yourself, “Am I prepared for what this takes?”, “Is this really something I can see myself doing?” , and “Is this what my vessel, mind, and spirit can align with that would best fit to serve humanity?” These questions are vast and universal. It takes a lot more than just some studying, interest, and a smiling face to solve. They have to be solved with key skills like determination, Discipline, and patience.
So go out into the world today with openness. Open that heart to knew experiences, Open your mind to new thoughts, and open your body of a point of freedom. Feel as though you have it solved but you are now learning. Learn everything possible. Watch what you see more often than others. Paying attention and having that awareness up to seeing what are the subconscious keynotes that keep inflicting. AND QUESTION EVERYTHING. For we are not built to last on old information, but to create a new revolutionized world for the new ideas to come. We are here to support each other and bring the trust of love back to building blocks. We have the strength, the courage, and the mind to do so. Bring your voice now back to that.
Light in the dark 